There is something really amazing about writing your first poem, the first from 2012, after writing got a bit hard and painful for a few weeks. After much anguish, including over trivial things such as stationary, I blessed a new notebook with words and instantly felt better.
I hope 2012 brings many moments like this, with perhaps less anguish. Here is my first poem of 2012. In the coming days, I’ll let you know what else is in store for this year in my writing and this blog.

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Like a junkie
poetic withdrawals
leave you shaking
searching frantic
for exactly the right pen
like the right vein
shallow
wet and visible
except the pen is there
to release poison
cleansing
The search for release
comes at all costs
sweating in the heat
forgetting your stomach
eating at its insides
but if only you could find
that perfect pen
bleed black onto paper
then speak it
seal your fix
open and unashamed
acutely aware of a strange
addiction
only addicts really understand
unlike the judging eyes
of normal people
who bottle everything up
look at you with pity
even disdain
if you dare disclose:
“I’m a writer.”
Left with desire
to find others
not just to read or listen
but to understand the words
that split out of you
messy like heavy sobs
when finally, it is done
you feel better, calmer
sometimes a little ashamed
that you went through that
all of it
just for a poem
You know then
that you are not normal
dysfunctional amongst the functional
but normal, calm and at home
standing facing odd friends
and strangers alike
finally functional amongst
the beautifully dysfunctional
your family of poets
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